Hospitals

I knew a man who didn't want to go to the hospital because it was too expensive.

He died.

I remember wanting to walk right up to to prime minster to smack his face (I was very young at the time). Hospitals are supposed to be helping us, not dropping a bombshell of bills. All this kind of things at the hospital, or at doctors, you go for a checkup, they rob you of 50 bucks. FOR WHAT?? 'Oh, actually, it's important that you go for checkups, because if anything is happening to you, We'll be able to help you.' Then why charge us so much? If it's to help ourselves?

I understand that it's really hard to become a doctor, you got to study and all that, and its draining emotionally, and physically, but why charge us so much? What's the point? What, there's the doc's salary? Simple; give them a house, not a big one of corse, give them enough supplies, and there we go.

And then I heard bout that thing where the hospital told a MOTHER that her CHILD is brain dead, but people say that he could squeeze hands and all that. But the hospital told her she only has 24 hours before they'll pull the plug... I don't know the full story, but that's just shit. If it's true... after I heard bout the story, I didn't trust the hospitals. Perhaps that was what the man I knew thought of before he died.

I've got a sorta confession to make... The two days I remember? The one where my sister was angry and we all were happy, and then we all were happy and she was angry? Well, it was actually me!! But I was too embarrassed to say so... But now we all know how weird a girl can be when she is reaching puberty

There's been a lot of people sayin stuff bout the world ending and all that. But didn't the bible say no one, not even God the Son and God the Holy Spirit, knows when the world will end, only God the Father? Yes, I too, do want to know, so I can prepare for it. So that I know when to start being good.

Someone actually said that the world would most likely end in two generations from now. Why? Because somewhere in the bible it says He will come at an unexpected hour, which could very well mean when people have forgotten about God. In this Someone's theory, in two generations time, there'll be so much high tech techno that people will REALLY think there is no need for God. Which is the time people will just not expect God to come, because we would've forgotten about him.

The new pope has just passed something bout not saying Yahweh in church. Or any of the other names that God has. There must be some reason, but that wasn't said. So all the hymns that has the names of God, gone. The new pope has been using the American Bible. Is the new pope an American?

Why Am I A Fool?

People keep asking me why I call myself a fool. Here's why:

"If you ask a question, you are a fool for five minutes. If you don't ask a question, you remain a fool forever."

I always ask questions. That is why I am a Fool.

AND I'M PROUD TO BE ONE!!!

I remember the nights when my mum would come into our room and talk to us till our dad brought her out for walks. There were two nights I remember. The first, my sister was crying, but for some reason, everyone else was in a merry mood. And on the second night, She was laughing her head off, and everyone was angry. And she asked on the second night "A why is it whenever I'm angry your are so happy and when I'm happy your are all so angry?" Everyone just yelled at her to shut up. Haha!!

Octupus' Garden By RIngo Starr

This song always makes me smile. I don't know why.

To Be Loved By You Cover version by Westlife

I just thought of this song. I'm in one of my moods right now.


The song of a little bird
The joy in three little words
I know it's real
That's how it feels
To be loved by you

The stars from a midnight sky
The melody from a lullaby
There's nothing real
That I wouldn't steal
To be loved by you

To be loved by you
If everybody knows
It's only 'cause it shows

A smile to put you on a high
A kiss that sets your soul alight
Would it be all right if I spent tonight
Being loved by you

Being be loved by you
If everybody knows
It's only 'cause it shows

Your love is released
And you move me with ease
And you rescue me time after time
Oh Oh you give your all
And you take it all in your stride

Oh with all the power of a symphony
That's how my heart beats when you're holding me
I can't conceal, this is how it feels
To be loved by you
Oh yeah, to be loved by you
If everybody knows, it's only 'cause it shows
Because I take your love, Everywhere I go

I know what it is I need, it's clear as a shallow stream
It's as it seems, my only dreams
To be loved by you

Obedience

When I compare my Mum and my Mum's Mum, I find very little difference. My Grandmother is very loyal to my Grandfather, my Mum is very loyal to my Dad.

Both keep quiet when the Husbands say things, even when they don't like it (But I've seen my Mum actually tell my dad to shut up!), both would follow the Husbands 'even to certain death'.

My Grandmother has real strength that I see in my Mum. But I know they can both be as stubborn as Asses.

A friend's boyfriend once asked me (the topic was bout marriage) if I would be Obedient to my husband. I was really surprised when I answered yes as if it was the world's most obvious answer.

I kind of hope to be like them if I marry. But the way it looks at this point in time I don't think so. Coz I don't think I know my place.

Broken heart. Me? How is it possible? I don't even like him.

This post concerns a friend of mine who had gone through this before, and I asked her if I could post it on this blog. She said yes (That means I have her permission!).

This friend of mine, she had joined a youth group around the start of this year and there were bumps, more often than not. But the group having just started, needed a lot of things to be done. She ended up becoming a vice-president (pretty cool right!). And in doing so, She had to collect all the numbers and details of everyone.

Blah blah blah.

She talks to some, they talk back. One guy (YES, A GUY), a couple days later starts to sms her and stuff, just asking general things.

(Usually in this part, people watching the movie are thinking; 'You idiot girl, somethings going to happen to you!! It's right in front of your face!!' But what most people don't think about is that we, the viewers, know there's something going to happen. She, the 'actor', doesn't.)

One day during a camp, he starts to sms her, saying that he was dead, and someone had killed him. She's asking who that is, blah blah, then he suddenly calls her. She hears some kind of weard noise on the other end, like someone putting something into the mouth, and taking it out again.

She's asking who that is, but he keeps making all kind of weird nosies. After a really long time, he says "'name', how are you? Why you call me?" At which pint she got really angry. After the call was over, he said he was sorry, and that he'll buy her lunch. But she said no and managed to get out of it (For the moment!)

He kept trying to get her to go out with lunch with him, and he kept playing pranks of her and laughing about it. Till in the end she told her mum, who told her friend, and they both told my friend that she had been too nice to the guy, which is why he liked her so much. Her mother told her to sms him and ask which school he was in. He told her, then told her he was in normal tech. Her mother told her normal tech people are very protective because other people look down on them. So what ever they think they have, they'll hold onto it.

So they advised her to either tell him to lay off her, or just say that she had a boyfriend. So she made up a fake boyfriend. (Suddenly he too had a girlfriend) He then started to become very protective:

"If he does anything, call me and I'll call my gang up to beat him up."
"Where are you now?" She answered: "With my boyfriend." Once she even answered, using her mother's advice: "I'm out on a date with an older man." Which was actually her dad...

She sometimes told him that she was out with her boyfriend watching a movie. He kept saying that he was going out with his girlfriends to Vivo City to watch movies after that.

After a while, she got irritated that he kept asking where she was and bosting to her, she stopped replying to his sms's. One day, she told him yet again to stop paying pranks and that she was irritated by it, he answered; "Then let's fight." She just sent "No." back. After that he didn't sms her again.

That was perhaps 4 months ago. She told me that at the start, while she was still wondering if he was trying to get her on a date, she felt, weird, yet, interested that someone may be asking her out. After that "No.", she told me she felt lost. She actually half wanted him to continue to sms her. She knew exactly why she felt that way.

Recently, he started to ask for another girl's number, a girl that they both knew. The girl was her best friend (yours truly!).

She then told me that she felt jelous. Not at her friend, not that her friend was now getting the attention, but that she was loosing it. At which point she called me and told me what she felt (She had been keeping me informed about him).

She said her parents said that she had just had a taste of what it is like to have a broken heart.

She hated the feeling of it. She especially hated the feeling of jelousy.

Flags?

I am not supporting anyone, nor am I not not supporting anyone.

A few years ago my sister suddenly had the idea to count flags. This year... I just feel there's less flags. And now that I'm counting them with my other sister, it's a real shame.

I liked the planes. As usual we rushed out to see the planes fly really low. And it's was really funny coz my mum was using her com to watch the parade live on the net, and the com was on the dinner table outside. So it's like, the sky was just there, and we ran out to see the planes, run back to the table to watch again. And our neighbors were there too. Can you imagine it?? 'Bout 8 or 9 people running back and forth looking out for planes!

However... The parade, My dad told me once there was a parade that kept singing all the childhood songs, like chan mali chan (oioi!!), and the crowd was singing along to all the songs. (I think I remember that parade...) But this year... six or seven screens behind the performers, that didn't have much link to the people dancing, though some did link. And the dancers... though old and young have joined in to do it, which is kinda nice really, the dance moves?! Jump at this point, run about, wave your arms up and down?

Nothing really made sense... I understand it's got to be really hard to organise and all that, and it's really hard to be the dancers themselves, and I don't know if I can do a better job. But really... I think that it should have been carried better. Things should connect with each other, and not leave people thinking; 'What?'. But the statues were cool.

And the commentators!!! SO irritating! They just wouldn't stop talking!! It's like, You're trying to listen to the people singing, but you only hear them talking!! I mean, the infomation they give is quite... informing. But honestly! Even during the display of WATER they were talking!!

I really really liked it when the two planes flew at each other! The planes were really really cool. And I heard that those planes could, at full speed, cross Singapore in a minute!

Overall... I think it wasn't the best that could have been done...But it was a good performence on the dancers part, and excellent manovering on the pilots part.

:D