By Having So Called Friends My English Becomes Worse

Ever since I started to go to a Youth Group that was around my age I realised a lot about myself and a little bit about what the world may be like. Things like saying please wasn't there, it'd be more like; 'A, pass that'. I sometimes wonder if they're being rude or just so comfortable with each other.

I once asked a 'friend' if she could say please when she didn't. She and I didn't really talk a lot after that because she said that I was touchy. No disrespect to her.

If she is right, I'm touchy. But then again, a please would be nicer espacially if we just met. Same with that friend. We just met, and she's been quite rude, and I finally said as nicely as possible, a please would be nice. She ignored me till the end of the day and she said she thought I was touchy.

Is it unreasonalble to think that's rude, and that I'm not touchy? And for some of the people I know now, sometimes they too are a little rude, but then again, they're supposedly my friends, but when I try to talk to them, they wouldn't want to answer and sometimes try to answer me in order for them to go and talk to their 'real' friends. But then when they have no one else to talk to, they suddenly want to tell me all about themselves.

Well that's nice.

And while talking to them, I find I curse a lot more, I use singlish, along with slang words like Sia, woa f**k man, and what the shit is that? Before, I used only words like bloody hell and oh shit!!.

I find, that even though they aren't even friends, I'm willing to talk and humor them if only for someone to talk to. Pa-Ta-Tic right?

Once in a while, I see a few people who always stay outside the group. Call me stupid, I always somehow want to do something for them just to let them know that they're being noticed (You can throw up now if you haven't already).

Roll eyes.

Dumb isn't it? When I can't fit in, I want others to. I think this is what parents, or at least my parents, always feel, when they tell me to do this, do that, go and study for 'O' levels. Althought they say, they'll give me the guidelines, but they won't push me, so if I fail, it's my fault.

It's a good thing, I think, the way they do things.